A Blessing

If we could take a fresh unsharpened #2 pencil, erase our past & start over .. would we be the people we wish we could be or would we just be remnants of the person we once were?

We all have things we regret / skeletons in our closets, if you will; but washing them away or tossing a bottle of Clorox bleach into our closets & scrubbing the floors until our hands are red … will not change who we are today.

We cannot cover up nor ignore the past.  We cannot move forward as though the past didn’t happen either or else we’d be walking in place … or worse … backward.  Where then goes the progress we’ve made but as  left-over – erased on the chalkboard only to be written over w/someone else’s words? Ours … lost.

The future includes our past.  Although, it is not obvious, it is still much like a piece of luggage dragged behind at the airport making that klunk, klunk, sound as we walk; regardless of whether we acknowledge it or not; no matter how evident or intangible – it is what made us who we are.  Should we embrace it & hold it close or try with all of our might to put our present lives on hold & continue with everything we have inside to stop that sound that can never truly be stopped?

Look back at your childhood; the laughs, the tears – your adolescence, adulthood; your loves, your losses, your children, friends, brothers, sisters - family & so on.  Your life changed because of them & theirs because of you.  Change happens for better, for worse, for growth, for a number of reasons untold to us & it will continue throughout your life.

Every single instance in your life happened to make you who you are today & it will continue to happen, to help you develop into who you WILL be in the future.  Sounds crazy huh?  Almost unreasonable?  Beyond your control?  Look back again & reflect on those times when you cried, when you laughed uncontrollably & couldn’t force yourself to stop smiling no matter how hard you tried.  Sounds to me like a blessing J